Thanks everyone!
It makes me feel better to be able to share with everyone. When I was first diagnosed, I thought that I had a grip on all of this. I'm really trying to get started on a routine, but I'm having trouble with it due to these mood changes. I too get up and have my morning cigarette lol my depression seems the worse in the morning, so all I want to do is just sit outside and feel sorry for myself for about 20 min I too lack happiness and motivation... The motivation being the big one for me.. Its amazing that u were able to ride your bike to get the things u need! That's something I could never do. Socializing sucks for me, and its upsetting because I used to love being around people! But I feel like I don't know anyone anymore, or that they are judging when they look at me. When I try to talk to them, I feel like they are thinking how dumb I am, and wandering why I'm even around... So I go to my room and just sit there, anxiously waiting for everyone to leave so I can go on with my evening. Panic disorder sounds horrible! I'm so sorry you have to go through all of that. everything is so much worse when I start to panic! I'm trying to give myself time to adjust to these meds, but its hard to! For some reason I want this instant gratification that I know I'm not gonna get that. My Pdoc says it could take up to three months to fully b in my system! That's insane! Idk, sorry I tend to start rambling on when I get excited lol thanks everyone for the support! I'll try to keep u guys updated on everything! Hope everyone is doing OK!

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