Thank you all. I know and just always keep telling myself to take one day at a time. Some days are just better, and worse then others. Each day brings its ups and downs; I try and handle as best as I can. Thats all we can do. I understand that somedays we are able to take 2 steps forward and the next we go back 10; its hard doing this strange dance never feeling like getting ahead, but maybe just maybe one day we will have more forwards than backs.