Traumaprevention.com. buy david bercelis book and do the exercises. Its a quarter hour of standing let work and a quarter hour máx of shivering on the floor. You will be astonished what that can do.

Also look up Mikal Vega Vital Warrior.

I think you have to make a transition from one life to the next. It is disorienting to pop out of one life into the next. We dont actually leave the bad bits behind us. We digest them. We then them into something good.

Try this meditation. Breathe in, and let your breathe strike the diamond of your heart and transform to peace, jou, love, bliss.

When you are dogged by a memory, breathe it in, let it strike the diamond of your heart and transform, breathe out peace, love, joy, bliss.

Any memory, you recall an angry face, breathe in the angry face, let it strike the diamond of your heart and change, breathe out the face showing peace and love and bliss and joy.

It works.

You are accepting what is and was, but also wishing for a good outcome.

Unpack your heart and put it on the wall. Its not wrong to remember every day. In time.new pictures And things will go up. Your old and current life will integrate.

Maybe you need the pictures and mementos to remind you that you have a purpose. Being a student can seek aimless and childish, and maybe you will hear sheltered children say foolish things about people and places you know. You could feel a little alienated. Its probably good to be reminded of your old life if it meros you grounded in your deeper values.

I dug out a photo of an old boyfriend. I have a son the age this boyfriend was when I knew him. Maybe thats why. The past is never left behind. I realised I could treat chronic ptsd at fifty and suddenly my Long ago friend is in my thoughts every day, and
Ive felt healing myself is healing him. I dont know why. Insanity or dementia perhaps. Its as real to me as reality.