I think you are right about the ocd... It's been two months. I understand the playing the field thing but you see... I can't imagine someone better then him. I've had anxiety before in my life and yes, maybe I am not mature enough to have a relationship that will result in marriage and yes, that scares the hell out of me, not having 'played the field'. But I know I would go for the same kind of guy, the same personality, the same looks. I would go out with a copy of him. I am scared to commit at 19 because I know that is what he has in mind and I'm in my opinion still too young. But is that worth losing an amazing guy? A guy with the same visions, who wants the same life? I'm still living in anxiety every day but when I read about the 'you should break up'-posts I wanted to puke. I really wanted to throw up. And I love the comments that say: oh it will end well. Maybe I shouldn't take the relationship so seriously? I overthink everything and I'm still disconnected... I'm not emotionally mature enough to be in a marriage-relationship but he is great and I know he is the one I should be with to have a balanced relationship.