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Jun 16, 2014, 06:20 AM
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Member Since: Sep 2013
Location: UK
Posts: 1,103
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Originally Posted by waggiedog
  
Hello and good evening from London, UK. O dear, YES YES YES, as our other friend SoupDragon pointed out ~ this is absolutely typical of the beginning of what could turn out to be a nasty eating disorder. Eating disorders can, and do, kill and I'm not just talking about the anorexic person mentioned in the press. Your ED is already speaking to you, she will sound like, and pretend to be your friend ~ she isn't.
I'm honestly not being harsh darling, it's just that I know because I've had all of the various types of ED's over the last 33 years, and I still have a serious ED now. I was first hospitalised 33 years ago for depressions and anorexia, there were in~patient treatments in the following years with other traits like self~harm and overdoses. I'm assuming that you are young and I'd absolutely HATE for you to live your life as I have. Honestly, I DO UNDERSTAND that you become thrilled if you manage to go for long lengths of time not eating, I KNOW the feeling of euphoria! I too used to hide my weight loss and sometimes my weight gain. Yes, I did/and do gain weight due to the bulimic part of my ED. I know that you will be frightened of telling someone the truth because you're worried they will try and stop you starving, that's natural. If you still feel that you are frightened to let anyone in on your regime, then it's already got you in it's clutches. Please please think carefully about what's been said here, I'd hate you to end up depressed and physically ill. Do come back and let us know how you are getting along. It doesn't matter which direction you take, I'd still like to support you either way. If you want to message me or send a PM, that's fine by me. |
I am in this place. I am feeling so fat and horrible because I ate something which I don't usually allow myself to. I have gained. I hate myself. I want to talk to my T but she doesnt think its a problem because I look so big. I think she thinks i am wasting her time. She told me to go to the gp which I did and they did blood tests but all came back clear so i feel like I wasted their time. I take laxatives every day.
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