OE~ you do deserve to heal.

Don't go licking your stamps just yet and this post will probably piss you off and might even trigger you so if you don't want to hear what I honestly think, please do not continue.

You say "I have had it with people who need to "blame me" for THEIR PROBLEMS. " and yet this whole post sounds like you are blaming everyone else for your problems. I understand you are in pain but if you address the public with these emotions, you will be the pot calling the kettle black. or the other way around. I'm not sure.

Find your strength. One step at a time. Your case is moving through the system. when you get your day in court, it will be easier to see your pain if you don't behave in the manner that they will portray you. If I was to sit on your jury, I could see you or your opposing team as vengeful and they are not emotionally invested. Tears of pain are different than tears of anger.

I hope that didn't come out wrong and I'm sure i'll touch on this a bit more later. I can't believe I would promote walking away but what's 6 months in the span of your 8 years? Take it for yourself. Stop letting them beat you down on a daily basis.

Your experience sucks~ no doubt about it. It was violent and something I would never want to experience but that should be your concern right now.