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Old Jun 16, 2014, 10:59 AM
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Originally Posted by skies View Post
It's holding me back from getting better. I got to get it out of me-it's torturing me and driving me crazy.

Please, someone tell me if you've successfully ERADICATED one from your system.

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I never got ...rid of... or as you call it eradicated any of my alters including those that were DID type introjects..... and did not even try....

you see here in NY and with in my culture the belief system is that alters can not die, be killed off and do not "leave"

here the belief system is that a person is born as one whole person.

then through the use of dissociation while undergoing extreme trauma at a very young age, everything/each part (memories /emotions/events /.... everything that makes up a persons personality) in that whole persons mind....breaks off or as some here on psych central call it ...splits / gets walled off/ gets dissociated...because that whole person can not handle the extreme trauma at such a young age.

then each of those parts of the whole persons personality become a alternate personality with their own way of being, their own jobs, purposes, reasons for being.

example when I was born to my biological mother and father I was one whole person. As one whole person I had one whole personality....everything that made up who I was, what type of person I was. my parents and siblings tell me I was a happy baby, smiled, cried, giggled, got angry, expressed emotions as a toddler, I liked carrots, hated peas, played with all kinds of toys, had definite likes and dislikes, liked playing dress up, liked all kinds of clothing...

then I was abused physically, emotionally and sexually before the age of 5.

then the aware self could no longer express emotions remember abuse events ....but when I was dissociated those emotions, remember abuse events..... were with in what is called alternate personality known as red (anger) Sunny (happy) Thelma (sexualized/adventurist) Rainy (depressed, crier) Nellie (introject, alternate personality that took on the job, purpose reason for being /role of my abuser)....(these are not the actual names of my alternate personalities just named them that for illustrating my point..

through treatment for my problems and learning how to handle my problems, once I was able to do that those alternate personalities integrated/merged back with me to become one whole person again....

none of my alters were lost, gotten rid of, killed off or as you say eradicated....everything that was each of my alternate personalities became me.

the result of this was that when ever I felt the ....urge to harm myself (what used to be walled off into an alternate personality) I could now make the choice to do harm to myself or not, I could choose to act on that urge or not. just like if I get angry (what used to be the alter Red) I can now choose to get angry or not, show my anger or not, ....

so how did my treatment providers and I handle the introject before I was integrated....inpatient care when ever any of my alternate personalities were being a danger to me, the other alters or anyone else.

my suggestion if you have an introject that is doing harm to yourself or others contact your treatment providers. they are the only ones that can tell you what is best for you to do for your treatment plans and your mental and physical health....

here all we can do is share our stories/let you know whether we have had the same problem and what we and our own treatment providers do about the same problem based on the laws of our own location, treatment options in our own locations and what our own treatment plans are...

I personally do not go according to what I find on the internet about what to do because it can lead to being more harmful then good or against the law in my location or against the treatment plans my treatment providers have me on...

examples of some things I have found on the internet about introjects and how to handle them...

some say talk with them,
make boundaries/ rules
call them out
listen to them,
comfort them,
find out why they want to harm you,
hide the item of choice for doing harm
give them this or that...

well in my location calling out of alters is against the ethics/mental health rules, maknig rules, setting boundaries would not work because they took on the role of my abusers thats what their job/purpose reason for being created was, no rules/boundaries/toys and what not was going to change them. listen, comfort them...you cant do that while you are being stabbed, punched, and what ever else because the introject is the one in control of the body not the aware self they are just doing what they were created to do. hiding the object of choice for doing harm does no good because anything and everything can be used to harm someone... if they cant find the knife theres always a fork or spoon, stick, glass or plate or plastic object to break into a sharp point....even paper gives cuts if needed and paper cuts hurt like heck.

my point is only you and your treatment providers can say what type of introjects you have and how to best handle the situaitons they put you in....

my suggestion if this continues to bother you contact your treatment providers. they can help you to be safe and help you to learn what you need to to have peace of mind.
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Thanks for this!
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