Parley, yes, I understand what you mean. I definitely do struggle, but that is because what I witnessed pretty much blew out my "emotions" to a point where I was completely overwhelmed and literally broke down. However, that was invalidated, misunderstood, misdiagnosed and instead of having the right support, I ended up facing some very unsupportive treatments from others. I simply did not know about nor understood "PTSD" either.

I am fortunate to have a therapist that is able to see my records and what went wrong there, see that I was let down and hurt badly because my ex lawyer continued to
deny his worsening dementia and instead was regressing into how own little world. Sigh, oh there are so many bad things that I have been dealing with that is wrong. It is very much like the hay were people would rather not see it either. I am not saying that "I" am being attacked, instead what I am saying is that the overall dysfunction has been hurting me.

OE