That's all I feel atm, sad. I was in hospital for a week, came out on Thursday. But I can't even work out if it helped or not...while I was inpatient my bf told me he needed a break. And so now I'm living with my parents. The whole thing is messing with my head..a lot. And now I don't know if I just feel awful because of that, or if I feel awful anyway and that's just making it worse. I've been living in a bit of a bubble since he told me, and doing my best not to think about it. I just don't want it to be real. Every time it hits me again it feels like he just told me. No idea how I'm meant to get through this really.

Sorry, there isn't really a point to this...I just needed to get it out.

Also apologies for not really being there for anyone...I'm finding it hard to concentrate enough to even read posts, let alone reply. But I'm thinking of you all and hope you're doing ok