Strange how I was just thinking the same thing earlier. It seems I've just struggled all my life, and bad things keep happening and I keep struggling, and it's getting harder and harder. I never felt cut out for life. I always had a hard time. But things are even harder now and I just don't feel able to do it sometimes. I worry incessantly. I'm scared all the time. My luck generally stinks. I can get so down when I think of what all I've gone through. And I feel so tired of the fight all the time. I've done it for years and am not winning. I'm there with you...