ugh i joined a facebook group for alumni from the abusive treatment facility i was in when i was a teenager. all it did was trigger me. i saw some of the staffs facebooks. a few years ago one of the staff contacted me on facebook basically apologizing for all the abuse. i dont know why i continue to search for things that trigger me. i guess i think i can handle it but now i know that i cant. i do this with my former T too, by looking him up on the internet. it never works out but i never seem to learn the lesson.