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Old Jun 16, 2014, 03:18 PM
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Yeah, it's allowing them to have power. It does me/us no good. The women making a documentary exposing this organization wants me in it. She has asked me like 10 times. There are many reasons I won't do it. See, the ppl that have websites exposing this organization weren't abused like I was. It doesn't effect them the same. I just want to move on with my life. It's so hard though bc I want all the abuses occurring in this organization EXPOSED!! I've got to find a way not to let it run my life anymore.
i feel the same way. i want to expose them. but its pretty much already exposed. regarding the treatment facility. if u just google its name a lot of stuff comes up about how abusive they were. i could have joined a class-action lawsuit against them because the clinical director that was there when i was there didnt even have a license to practice psychology.

i also feel like i want to expose my former T. but at the mediation after the settlement i signed a contract basically saying that i wouldnt talk about what happened unless it was a mental health professional. it specifically said not to talk about it on the internet. sometimes i get paranoid that they will find out that i talk about it on here but i dont give out his name. but he has websites and stuff and i just want to comment on them and be like YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF SH_T. i think he asked for them to make that contract because when his license was revoked somehow the local news heard about it and posted an article online. i read the article and the comments. the comments were the worst. they were all saying that he would NEVER do anything like that and i was a ***** and wanted his money. they were really hurtful comments. so i made a screenname and told them how i felt and identified myself as Patient X (what they called me in the report, my name was never mentioned in anything). im pretty sure former T read those comments and wanted to keep me from exposing him. i signed the stupid contract but it makes me mad. why is he allowed to be able to hide from this? i hate him so much. it took me years to realize that what he did was abuse and very much like what happens with childhood abuse because of the dynamics. i think the worst part was right after i told and i felt so conflicted about it. when i told my pdoc i said im going to tell u something but i dont want u to do anything about it. i knew i didnt want to be in that situation anymore but i felt like it was my duty to protect former T. he instilled and groomed me to believe that. i tried to kill myself in the hospital days after i told. i no longer feel conflicted or guilty about turning him in. it was hard to feel angry at him at first but now thats all i feel towards him.
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