Hi Snuggles22, why not "hide out" a bit here with us, hey??
I know it can be really hard but maybe we can help a little with the way you're feeling. And maybe you can "share the load" a bit, whether we can help you feel understood/less alone, offer you some support or even give you a little hope that it can get better.............
So perhaps have a look around, there are some great people on here (including those who have already answered this!!), and you know, if you want to/if it may help, you can always tell us a bit more about what's going on for you...........
So welcome to PC!! We're here for you!!
Alison