Yeah, it's allowing them to have power. It does me/us no good. The women making a documentary exposing this organization wants me in it. She has asked me like 10 times. There are many reasons I won't do it. See, the ppl that have websites exposing this organization weren't abused like I was. It doesn't effect them the same. I just want to move on with my life. It's so hard though bc I want all the abuses occurring in this organization EXPOSED!! I've got to find a way not to let it run my life anymore.