BPH welcome and i understand your problem to a great degree!!!Whenever my family would get together, and there are 11 of us, i would always be the one who wasn't ALLOWED to talk. I do blame this on my older sister as i am the 2nd eldest and i believe to some extent it is her fault because she was the eldest and had to control the whole family, especially me. Every time i tried to talk no one seemed to be listening, and they were not allowed to talk to me back either. Good luck and try to find some new friends