It varies with me, too. I just discovered that I've had it since 14 (and I'm now 50). I'm also BP and on SSDI and I don't think I can ever work again with the dissociation. Working means producing and jumping when people want you to jump and I just do not work that way. I'm just not there a lot of the time and I can't figure out how to make a living like this. I've had all sorts of professional and menial jobs from engineer in Air Force to cemetery worker to office cleaner to library book shelver. I've taken a lot of abuse by all sorts of people (mental health professionals, classmates, roommates, co-workers, strangers, etc.) since 14 because of the way I am and that burns inside of me.

So how does a person get treatment for depersonalized dissociation?