I know I am definitely not depressed right now because I crave crowds and people. I have class twice a week, rehearsal twice a week, and that's it. It's not enough. On the days where I sit home all day I take my laptop and sit in the coffee shop for an hour or two. Today that wasn't enough, but I didn't want to go to the coffee shop twice in one day so I went to the library, but all the tables were full. I don't have bus fare to go to a different library or coffee shop, but hopefully next month I can.

At least the days when I have class or rehearsal I have fun. I have noticed I'm slightly louder and more boisterous than I have been in a while, but I don't think I'm hypomanic. I don't meet the DSM criteria, anyway.

It makes me think even more that my Asperger's diagnosis is really a combination of not being comfortable socially because I was the wrong gender, and depression/anxiety.

I've also been thinking a lot about my future plans. Maybe I don't have to go to theatre school. I think I'd rather get a job and focus on getting my work out there. More books, plays, songs. I'm a creator. I love acting, but creating stuff is even better.