Just because your therapist may have related some of they dynamics of what depression causes you to do and think, doesn't mean T has given up on you. Your very reaction is typical of depression... it tells us lies. Trust your T and remember that depression is lying to you, you need to doubt anything negative that comes into your mind... odds are it's only from the disorder/illness. I doubt T said you are doing this on purpose,,, but that it is something that happens with depression. That you heard "on purpose" just shows how entrenched the depression and negative thinking is...

Hang in there. Try and stop all those thoughts you "know" are true about yourself that are so negative... I doubt they are true in reality.

TC