After this 3-hour interview process today I just feel so not good enough, like an idiot who muffs every opportunity, and that my personality is at the base of it, not competence, that I offended my chair last week by not being collegial, and that "that's it" so to speak.

I am 58, and I wonder if the pain of being do gosh darn insecure ever ends, ever gets any better. Is there ever a time in life when I get to step out with confidence and feeling good about myself and not completely beating myself up about every little way in which I am not perfect.