I don't take medications because they mess with my head. I've never needed them to make me feel better. there was nothing I could do so I shut up and moved on.

After my trigger~ I went for talk therapy but perhaps I don't have PTSD, I've never been diagnosed with anything. However, I no longer have the pleasure of denial and need to face what I sucked up and shut up about-just to survive. Hate kept me on my feet. My stability was a ***** you to many.

My trigger~ undid everything i did over many years. I learned my hatred matured in the darkness and I spit up the shame that it brought me years ago. I think talk therapy can do me justice ~ it's better than hitting the streets.

Meditation was considered through the years when I got bored with being awake all hours of the night. I am a self taught insomniac. That's what I say to distance myself from the fear of sleeping. I acted as if I'd have a choice. Be careful of meditation ~ especially if you believe you have repressed memories and you're running on a trigger.