"I no longer have the pleasure of denial and need to face what I sucked up and shut up about-just to survive."
Thats it! Denial...... I can never go back huh?? Just tuck it all away pretend it never happened and let it go? I managed for many MANY YEARS with out falling apart.

Thats it! I have to go through this, while the people who put me in this position did their thing and died. Now my life has been altered forever an