Today I did a doozy and really let myself indulge in all of my destructive ways. I went and got a six pack of wine coolers, a pack of smokes and candy bars.
I had quit smoking for 4 months and I smoked 2 today, ate a bunch of junk, so I totally went off my diet and I got a little drunk. I haven't gotten drunk in about 5 years.
I don't know what prompted it. I think it's boredom, frustration, anger, lonliness-all of those nasty little emotions that need to be suffercated.
Anyway, I'm really bumming out because I feel awful about being so weak and undisciplined. I didn't even enjoy the smokes and the junk I ate although the drinking was kind of fun.
Oh well. At least I exercised today.
Time to start over.