I emailed my T about not being in love with her but wanting to be, about 2 weeks ago. Now it's time for my session again. I'm getting scared to discuss my email. If I don't say anything about it, she won't.

I think those thoughts and feelings are pathetic! What good is telling her? She'll just tell me I have choices if my H isn't meeting my needs. I don't want to hear that again! Sometimes I think I will go crazy without "being in love" and without the excitement that goes with that. Other times I think it's so pathetic to still want that at my age.