Oh glok you are so right. I used to beat myself up all the time. I always said I was my own worst enemy. I was told by a real smart person one time to just look myself in the mirror everyday and tell myself I was a good person and I was worth it. Even if I didn't believe it, it finally did help and didn't feel like such a lie. Getting better is hard, but we sometimes just need to get out of our own way and let it happen.