Well, the appointment this afternoon was so nerve-wracking.
Surprisingly, I fought off from crying. My voice cracked and shook a lot, but I didn't want to go to class with red eyes...so I didn't.
He asked a lot of questions, and seemed to be most interested in my self-injury.
I'm not sure if it was an official diagnosis, but he said I met all the criteria for major depressive disorder.

I seriously was more scared for this appointment than I ever have been performing for hundreds of people or for public speaking.
I basically told him everything, and it was really strange spilling these things to someone I don't even know.

Anyway...he suggested therapy and medication, which I am going to do both.

I really couldn't believe I actually did it, and followed through with the appointment. I guess now I know it's not just all in my head....?

We'll see where it goes.