I have a hard time with criticism. I struggled with 'why" for ages until I realized that, on some level, I must be taking it at absolute literal face value. It's like the psychological shields that most people have to deflect it, slow it down or interpret it with a grain of salt are very weak for me, and sometimes they just switch off completely. I have to actually think about it, sometimes very hard. I have no clue how to fix that. I don't even know why I'm like this.