What would you like to do that you feel you can't? What would you do if you knew you couldn't fail? You say that you don't fit in....describe that. I never fit in either (whatever that means)...People who have done amazing things.......didn't fit in either. Don't give up on yourself....you never know what can be or happen. I am 67 and I used my life story and won a scholarship.......we all have painful stuff. I hope you will stay with us.....there is only one you.....on the planet.....xxoxo...Is there something you have always wanted to do?