Are we ringing bells??? Lol anyway what I mean is to constantly live as if someone is out to get you which could be a complete stranger driving slowly in front of me and this can trigger these actions. To play out what has already happened time and time again, to let things tear you up inside to the point of shutting out or going insane. These struggles are a daily battle and yet how has this become so normal. It really is crazy how we adapt to life, to be dealt with unreasonable thoughts and thinking yet still be able to at least stroll through each day as we are like all others. Whats funny is as I get older people who I meet and become friendly with are only ones who have issues as well. All of my past and present friends all come from broken homes or some kind of issues. We really are like magnets to one another at least in my case!!!