oncoming depressive episode nope the episode is here probably has been around longer than you want to admit.

Can you throw headphones on and take a walk instead of going to bed? Maybe as bad as they are take a caffeine pill,or 5hour energy drink at dinner?

What medications did you order? Don't give up smoking right now. Wait, concentrate on eating the right things. Your not weak if you take the meds just add them back one at a time starting with the most help usually the AP for suicidal thoughts while you wait for your pdoc appointment. Call pdoc today for an appointment. If you choose medication they can help if you don't you can see if they can set you up with a dietitian and a wellness group/class.