Yeah - I can totally relate. Sometimes I think I would prefer for my t to tell me off. To tell me what he *really* thinks. He seems not to hate me, though. I keep waiting for it, but it never really comes. He tells me he cares, likes me, etc. More importantly, he acts like it. I think I finally trust him for the most part so we'll see what he does with that /: it's only been a year and a half lol