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Originally Posted by Grey Matter
My mom, after I was given a second diagnosis that is probably going to have me in a wheelchair in a few years, said "Not to be selfish, but this isn't fair to me either." And thinking about it is making me sick.
My brother was ill before he died and we all took care of him, we ALL did. I didn't ask to be the trope of "next sick adult kid", it just god damn happened.
I am so tired of being in this body that brings so many people shame and annoyance and frustration when they don't even know what it's like to wake up every morning and just crying because it feels like every bone is splitting open and there isn't a single drug or fix to make it better.
I love how I get to listen to how unfair it is by people who aren't me, who aren't missing out on being a god damn 20-something and staying alone constantly.
Yeah. It must be so unfair being able to have a life.
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I'm afraid it is true that, when it comes right down to it, each of us is mostly interested in & preoccupied with ourselves. We don't mean to be. But that's the way life is. And, try as we might not to be self-centered, this "selfishness" has a way of sneaking out despite our best efforts. In some cases, unfortunately, our self-centeredness doesn't even need to sneak out, because some people are more than willing to trumpet it. Either way, you get comments like: "It's not fair to me either." The only appropriate responses that occur to me are: "Well, excuse me for living..." or perhaps: "Believe me. It hurts me more than it does you..." People should think before they open their yaps...