Took my new medication for the first time this morning. It tastes disgusting. It's worse than the taste of cough syrup. They could have at least flavoured it.

At college I had to sit in front of a computer doing job search activities. At one point I got up to go to the toilet for the sake of walking. I've never thought this before, but computers can be so boring. Especially when the tutors won't let you listen to music on YouTube while you search for jobs. I think a part of my brain melted in that lesson.

Going out in public is still difficult. People keep staring at me. I think they're trying to either listen to my thoughts or steal them because my memory keeps going blank and I keep forgetting what I should remember. The only thoughts of memories I can remember clearly are ones I just want to forget. But I can't.

The voices keep on shouting at me. I think they're angry at me and I don't know why. They keep talking about how I failed my mission. They keep saying I'm a rubbish agent. But I didn't ask for any of this. It just happened to me. And now... Now I'm so confused. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what's going on. This feeling is so isolating.

My boyfriend is trying to be playful and cuddly, but I'm just not into it today. I'm so confused I want to isolate myself from the world.