Dear Akua,

Life ebbs and flows you are fluid. Energy whether mental/physical is not permanent and so there is hope. You maybe stuck but nothing remains the same.
Being without work for over 3 years, you have lost a reason to get up, even if you disliked your job. That sucks, and now you have too much time on your hands and too much time to think.
3 years you are probably losing ue benefits.
Lacking medical insurance does impede treatment but no hospital can deny you, its against the law.
Reaching out and asking for help is the first step, next you have to accept the help with an open heart. Apply for federal medicaid immediately.

Change some little things. I like the walk at night when all the people have gone home and it is quite. I enjoy the breeze/ the moonlight it helps to clear my mind without being surrounded by noise or people.
Music, what kind of music do you enjoy? Exercise, you said you use to enjoy it, what happened to change that? You are slowly pushing your friends away. Sure some people will get sick and tired of hearing the same song, others will say they did the best they could.
But it is up to you, you do have a future. Your debt can be managed. You can take steps now to save your assets before liens are attached. You control how you feel and react to your environment.
Make it what you want it to be.
I have been where you are truly, so you're not alone, life is far from perfect but it is better. I still fall on dark days and sometimes it takes a week for me to get back to neutral.
Restorative Sleep is very important. Diet is essential, you are probably lacking vital nutrients your body needs to be healthy.
Whatever power was taken from you, its time to take it back.
Be well,
Happiedasiy