Thanks for that Open Eyes. It helps me to understand a little better why I'm all of a sudden so damn "touchy." I guess before all this, I was triggered and maybe it registered at a different level and then I used unhealthy coping tools to get through it (like drinking). And now, because the can of worms is open I can see what's really going on and it's disturbing.

GROSS ALERT! I can't believe I just said that last sentence. It sums up a dream I had last night. It was so disturbing! I was looking at my left eye up close and there was white stuff like yogurt coming out of it and in the white stuff were white baby worms. After all the baby worms were out, all that was left to come out was the long white mama worm. So, I started pulling on the mama worm to force her out because I didn't think she'd come out on her own, but I pulled to hard and yanked her in half, yuck. Her top part came out but the bottom part of her was still in my head. Then I started crying because there was still some of the mama worm in my head. I know this getting way off topic, but I had to share it. Sorry for it being so gross.