I feel so pathetic not being safe alone because of this. I went and hung out in my Theology teachers office for almost an hour. I'm really glad he's okay with me coming and just sitting there. It's nice to have somewhere where I can let my guard down and don't have to worry about hurting myself (I won't do it in a teahers office, I feel it sorta is a betrayal to them and their space). It gave me enough time to cool down and regain enough sanity to resist SI for the rest of the day. Now it is night again though and my roomate is gone.

Why can't I just be normal and be alone and safe?