So ideally my session with T went...lets say not so smoothly. The ENTIRE time T did NOT say one word about boundaries! And she had this hypnotizing way to make me forget what that session was really about. We did talk about my email, only parts tho. She wanted to know if I wanted another T, and I said no. She even asked, "What can I do to help you?"

The entire session I pulled out my hair. Ive never done that before but suspect its from the amount of anxiety I had that hour. T even said, "Why are you pulling out your hair?" I could not answer her. What is wrong with me!?

Then T asked me why I was so upset after she cancelled my appointment? She told me her reason, which was she was throwing up and reason for such sort notice was I was her first client. And it just so happened she felt more sick the longer she stayed at the office. So im thinking great! Im a loser for freaking out on her because she cancelled without telling me. I told her I cried after she cancelled and got angry and wanted to self harm. T began to get teary-eyed. Not sure from what I had said or from her allergies. She apologized. She told me next time she cancels she will tell me why.

At the end, T said, "I wish we had more time". And "If I wasn't seeing someone next, I would have you longer." And she scheduled my appointment a week from today. Which ive been doing two weeks in-between.