((birdpumkin)),

Everything you described is traumatic and deserves to be validated. Your husband just was not emotionally attached like you were. Well, that can happen and I am sorry that he is not understanding the emotional distress you suffered because you could not go back and rescue those cats that were really important to you.

Trauma work is all about allowing the person to vent out the emotions that they have about a trauma, and then recognize the relief that takes place after they get to vent their emotions, verses thinking they need to keep all that emotion pent up. If you really got to be allowed to vent that trapped emotion you would begin to see how after you do that you gain such a sense of relief and can talk about it in a much calmer way.

If you have a husband that doesn't understand that and instead wants you to hold it in or reacts poorly to your need to vent, then that is only going to aggravate your challenge whether it is PTSD or not.

The one thing you "can" be grateful for is that your husband was not in that vehicle when that took place, some of those fires are very quick to ignite and in-golf to where a person literally has no time to escape to safety.

Two weeks ago I was on my way to work an event and I saw a truck where the cab was completely en-golfed in flames and that must have been what happened there too. I do not know if that driver escaped either, but it was a scary thing to drive pass and be so close to it as I drove past it.

At least you have PC where you can talk about it, but maybe you can talk to the fire department and see if they know of anyone that you can talk to that can help you when you need it. I know what it is like to have no insurance or money so I could get help, all the damage my neighbor's dog caused created such a huge financial mess for me and my husband where we had to go without help when my family should have had grief counseling. My husband crashed a couple of months after I broke and he would not get out of bed for over a month and luckily I had managed to get one horse sound enough to sell so I could pay our bills praying that he would recover so he could function again. I knew he needed to shut down, but I had no real help when that happened.

Of course, you can always come and vent here too, and the members will be supportive and understanding as best as we can.

((Gentle Understanding Hugs))))
OE