Dear Melissa,

I am so sorry for the frustration and pain you are feeling. I have read your posts in the past and have heard how much your grandmother means to you and how close your are, and what a wonderful granddaughter you have been to her. You have taken on a lot to give her what she wanted and to take such good care of her. Your feeling of helplessness to change what is going to happen is enormous... I can feel it! Please do use your DBT skills to try and self-soothe and make the best decisions possible. I'm sure also that your grandmother feels blessed about what a fine young lady you have become. I have to only guess that there is an element of betrayal in what you are feeling as well...and obviously guilt. So overwhelming, but I'm glad you still have around 6 mo to help make the transitions for her as positive as possible. I hate that you are hurting and wish there was anything I could do to help. Try to know in your heart that YOU have done everything that you could to help avoid this...and in her heart she will always know the battle you fought for her. Take good care of yourself and things will ease as the transition progresses. You have everything to be proud of. So many would not have fought such a valiant battle for her and you cannot ignore that...

Gentlest of hugs,
Wysteria Blue