Sometthing odd happened today, I was walking in the park, the sun was shining, the birds were singing, generally it was peaceful and I felt alive and was able to appreciate what was around me. I lost the apathy and the anhedonia. Early days, so many set backs, so many false starts, but please let it be my time for remission, please, please, please. I would do just about anything for this to be for real. I'm not too proud to beg.