Water I am so sorry for all that you have experienced. I hope you are able to resist cutting. While it seems like it will make things better it really doesn't. And it becomes addictive. I wish you could find someone to confide in like a counselor or someone who has some confidentiality obligation. Would your parents let you see a therapist? It worries me that you are in an abusive environment at home. Would your Dad be willing to see someone? Just something to think abut.

I willl be thinking about you. I know you will make the right deciison for you. Please take care and try and be safe.

BTW welcome to PC.