I understand really. Feeling like you're making progress. Fighting so hard through the pain and having it leave so that you truly start to believe its over now. Seeing yourself in a positive light and throwing the bad perspective away like it was never there to begin with.......and then something happens. A crisis. A loss. Something super stressful. And it seems like that cloud that was long gone came right on back it makes me feel like why try so hard when it's all coming back around to this again anyways???

I'm still fighting. I believe dbt skills can help. But personally, I don't believe that they can cure. (That's only my opinion.) I think they help buffer the storms. I'm still holding out for a cure (or semi-cure as I know there is no perfection) and am in long-term therapy. I want to get to the root. I don't even know that it's possible but I'm hoping - hoping through the pain. My T said that his hope for me is that one day I can really come to a place where I can accept my feelings - whatever they might be. (That I could be self-compassionate around them, I think.) I can't seem to wrap my head around how to do that per se, but wanted to pass that one onto you. Thought maybe it might help