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Old Jun 17, 2014, 07:26 PM
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I'm curious RB, what exactly were you planning on doing med free during an episode and why is that now off the table as you anticipate one?

I assure you its purely a question, I'm just trying to understand your position.

What you describe, the not wanting to do anything, yet wanting to do something at the same time is what I've been going through for the past 2 weeks now. My remedy has been distraction.

Once I reach the "god I'm sick of myself" stage, I force myself out of my bed / room and go over to my friend's where I'm engaged and distracted. Admittedly not always effective, and fruckit not easy, but its what's been helping me, so I stick to it. Its annoying as all fruck and yes I do feel a depression lurking, one that feels quite scary at certain times.

Buuut, on several occasions my depressive episodes have actually been much milder than I initially fear. My depressions that have a steady build up over weeks are usually horrific episodes, but so far thankfully, the last 2 weren't as bad as I anticipated, I was able to handle it better than I expected. But I guess once you've had THE BIG ONE, you always fear its the big one. Its natural

I'm rambling now, probably because its after 2am already.

I think I forgot what the point of my reply was

Oooh wait, I forgot to say this.

Taking meds isn't a sign of weakness, it means you acknowledge that your method of managing isn't effective and that you value yourself enough to get the help you need.

I hope I never have to be on meds ever again, but I won't hesitate to take them if I felt I bit off more than can chew.

Its all about doing what's best for you ((((((((RB)))))))
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