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Old Jun 17, 2014, 08:39 PM
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Originally Posted by sjkero View Post
no i have a hard time opening up to begin with. not to mention it happened right before my session and i was so shocked by it i dont think i processed it until hours later. i don't want to tell her about it... b/c as much as i was shocked by it, i have a weird feeling that she'll filter what she says and does from now on so i'm not affected? it's a weird thing... as much as this upset me, my curiosity is so intense with her that i think i'd have more anxiety if i didn't have access to these moments that she thinks i don't see.

it's weird. i know.
You've been seeing her for 5 years, and yet you can't tell her you saw her smoking and it made you realize she's just a human like you? Something is wrong in your relationship if that's the case. Can you practice opening up and starting to tell her some of the more "scary" things you think and feel?
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