Wysteria: thanks so much. I have been quite emotional the last few days. Don't know if that the depression, all the other emotions, or both. I'm avoiding my mom at the moment. Just don't want her to see me like this.

Freewilled: it stinks to feel like all the good is being ripped away. Giving up sounds good except I'd be no good to grandma. So I'll be doing therapy and all that jazz mostly so I can continue to care for her when she comes home Friday.

On another note: T has not responded to my email as I slip away more into depression and anxiety. I really need her to respond.