Are there any professionals you can talk to? When I had therapy once a week or twice a month she often knew befor anyone else what was happening. While I was med free back then it was only with her help I was able to see what was going on and adjust my schedule accordingly. We are often not in the best position to tell whats going on because we are at the center of it, others have a differnt perspective.

The other thing that concerns me is you are stopping and starting meds without a doctor. That's kinda like self medicating and a danger sign for some.