Currently we are doing Shadow work - today we talked about identifying what my Shadow is made up of in preparation to start working on integrating it. The first thing we already identified (which reared it's ugly head last August and caused the one rupture we had) is as she put it "the dreaded money monster". I've been thinking about it a lot and the other night wrote about it, looking at the word "monster" and I thought, what IS a monster? Well, a monster is strong. And what is another way of saying strong? Well, strength, I guess. And hey, a strength is a GOOD thing, right? So I can work with that. So we talked about that, and I thought hey, is this how we start, figure out what my shadow is (basically anything I say "I hate when I..." about myself is my shadow) and then figure out a way to turn it around into something positive? I think she was kinda proud of me when I said that. I'm actually quite excited about doing this 'inner work' right now.