It takes time for our minds to get out of the ED mindset. It has been 2yrs since I was actively involved with behaviors and I still have those thoughts on occasion.

You DO deserve to be in treatment. You WILL get out of the hole. It sucks when we don't get the support we so desperately need. Keep coming here and reaching out.

The other day my mom made a comment about my stomach, and I wanted so badly to restrict and not eat; however I chose to tell the thoughts to shut up and they did. You can do it hun.