Right now, the thing keeping me from relapsing back into anorexia is an upcoming cosplay competition where the character I'm dressing as is supposed to be kinda curvy.

In general, that competition. Wanting to learn more and help people. Wanting to finish college and not be a failure. Wanting to have a happy life with my fiance when we get married and needing to be able to help support us financially and emotionally. Wanting to be more successful than that ***** in my major that said biomed engineering is easy (because screw that guy). Not wanting to let the professors that vouched for me to be able to get services I need down. Wanting to finish writing and drawing all the stories I have in my head but needing to find time to do that.