I am a Transference addict. I did not get enough bonding from my Mother. Funny, she was not a horrible, abusive mother - just not really there for me. Then comes along my T - my whole world changed. I went through all of the phases and now in my second year I have accepted the transference.

I go and see my T, not really for any other reason than to get to the core of this transference thing. I have a feeling I will be with him a long time! I won't see him for 2 weeks now and the thought is killing me. I was going to ask for a second session this week, so I could cut the two weeks by a few days, and then I thought, I have to grow up and get through this! So..my big idea of the day is to carry a beautiful big stone. Anytime I get the big pain of missing him, I grab the stone and hold it (like it's his hand)! How pathetic, but it helps a little. So it's me, my family, my dog and stone for the next two weeks.