Oh BobbyJBones you don't have to be perfect. If these people are your true friends it really won't matter to them. It sounds like your depression talking...."you're no good!" You are a good person and if you feel like these friends need to know anything. Why don't you just let it out? Clear the air right up front then you will not have anything to worry about. Don't let the negative thoughts rule you. I hope this helps you some.